I know I shouldn't feed the trolls, but ...

... I have something of a self-esteem problem, and I'm afraid what this particular troll is saying is true. I just wanted to make my readers aware of what's going on in the comments with this guy (or girl? Who knows) in case someone wants to disagree.

Here's what happened - I went to The Fake Doctor's blog, where he had a post listing his mail and responding to it. I commented something to the effect of, "I wish I had your traffic and readership - it would be nice to get mail!" So then Beepy the Troll came out from under the bridge, wandered over to my blog, and said:

The reason you get fewer hits than the fake doctor is simple: your blog isn't as good.
Beepy | 03.20.07 - 1:31 am |

I responded:

Well, that was uncalled for.
Kim | Homepage | 03.20.07 - 8:30 am |

Then it (the only pronoun I can use, since I don't know Beepy's gender) returned to my allegedly horrible blog for a second visit (hmmm?) and said:

Uncalled for? Maybe. True? Absolutely! Your blog is trite trash. If you've nothing interesting to contribute to the world, why bother? I suppose if you keep trying, maybe something novel will come out on accident. Keep up the crap work. Don't mistake my comments as hostility. Just pure truth.

In my next post, I wrote:

In other news, if you read the comments on this post, you'll learn from one uncouth commenter named "Beepy" that my blog is far inferior to The Fake Doctor. You know, in case you were wondering.

To that, it says:

Far inferior? I don't think I put it quite in those terms, but I appreciate your doing it for me. I'm not even a very big fan of the fake doctor, it's just that your blog is so cruddy in comparison to, well, virtually anything ever created by a person over the age of eight, that it got me all riled up. p.s. it worries me that you'll be a doc one day. Based on the mediocrity of your blog, I can only assume you subscribe to the C = MD plan. Am I right? Gotta be.

This makes me want to cry. Should I stop writing? I've been wondering this for awhile anyway, because medical school has stolen my creativity and sense of humor (by the way, it scares ME to death that I will be a doctor someday - and it was GREAT to hear someone else say that) and I feel that I don't have much to contribute anymore. If you're a reader who would miss my blog if it wasn't here, I'd appreciate it if you'd let me know. Particularly in the comments.

Sorry - I have exams in a week (AGAIN) and I'm just stressed and sad tonight. Medical school does that to you as well - and it's also a lonely place sometimes. Textbooks aren't very good friends.