The lyrics to this song touch me so much.

Christy and Jay and I finally had our Dreamgirls date (we had a pact that none of us would watch it unless we watched it together) and it was just fantastic. This song by Beyonce (a la Deena Jones), Listen, has lyrics that really speak to me and that I would write, partially, if I were a songwriter. Sometimes I feel that the people I love in my life just do not understand what I'm trying to do in school, and that it HAS to be the most important thing in my life right now, or I'm not going to get through it. I feel like I don't have a choice. You can't half-do medical school, you know? And I've bolded some phrases that are particularly relevant.

My first rotation, psychiatry, started Monday - and I've been composing a mental post all week, so that will come later when I'm not so exhausted. For now, let's all sing.

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

I'm not mad at anyone, I'm just tired. If you love me, please try to understand and support me.