Busy, sick, busy, sick, sick, sick.

The title basically sums up my past 7 or 8 weeks - my "personal leave" from this rotation. I had so much I wanted to get accomplished, and have done none of it because I've felt so flippin' awful. If I do feel like writing soon (hopefully I will - and prayers that I'll feel better are always appreciated), here's what you'll see:

• What the Internal Medicine rotation was like for me
• The evaluation with an attending physician who completely crushed my spirit and still has me wondering if I should be in medical school in the first place
• My Christmas photo shoot Gabe (and now Reed)
• Gabe's little brother Reed's entry into the world
• Christmas
• Some health & beauty products that I luuuurrrrve lately
• Your Fentanyl Patch and You
• A few good movies
• The recipe for some yummy fruit salad that I've been making lately (only 2 Weight Watchers points per cup!)
• My hope that I will soon wake up, discover that the past 2 1/2 years were only a terrible nightmare, and find that I am just preparing to start medical school, without pancreatitis or debilitating anxiety and depression - and that I'll be able to perform the way I could if I weren't shackled with this hateful pain and anxiety. Actually, that wouldn't be a whole post - it's just a thought.

I'll try to feel like writing. :-)